The doctor at Klinik Kesihatan looked at me and said it as casually as possible:
“Hyperthyroid isn’t good for the heart in the long run.”
No pressure in his tone, no drama — just quiet truth that settled in my chest.
That was the moment things started shifting.
The thyroid journey hasn’t been a straight line. It started with an appointment at KKPC in December 2024. Then I got a follow-up set with an endocrinologist in January 2025. The doctor was calm and informative, and for the first time, it felt like I was really moving toward something more certain.
In March, I had an appointment with the eye specialist too — just to rule out any thyroid-related eye issues. Thankfully, everything was okay. The thyroid didn’t seem to affect my eyes, which was a huge relief. One less thing to worry about.
But in between juggling appointments and life, I forgot to call USM to confirm the date for my radioactive iodine treatment. Classic me. So I had another appointment with Endo in April, and that’s when I finally made the call to USM.
Now?
I’m just waiting for two big things:
the next appointment with Endo and the iodine treatment at Hospital USM, hopefully sometime next month.
Since HRPZ II doesn’t offer iodine treatment, USM is the next step.
After taking carbimazole (yes, I finally googled the name properly) from 2019 to 2025, I’ve been through what feels like an endless cycle:
blood tests, fluctuating results, adjusting dosage, feeling okay, feeling not-so-okay — repeat.
Some test results were promising.
Others made me question everything.
It’s been exhausting.
So, no — I didn’t say yes to iodine because I’m super brave.
I said yes because I’m tired.
Tired of not knowing. Tired of depending on numbers. Tired of waiting to feel better.
Maybe this treatment will finally help stabilise my thyroid.
Maybe I won’t need meds anymore.
Or maybe I’ll need new ones if things shift and I go hypo.
I don’t know.
But what I do know is that I’m finally doing something about it.
Taking the next step.
Saying yes to change.
And maybe, saying yes to healing — slowly, quietly, in my own way.
This isn’t a goodbye to the thyroid chapter just yet.
But maybe, just maybe, it’s the start of something better.
